.& Searching.for.Something &.

[xX Skyshadow Xx]

.& Bloodytail &.

I can't feel my senses
I just feel the cold
All colors seem to fade away
I can't reach my soul
I would stop running, if knew there was a chance

Bloodytail sprinted along the DarkClan / NightClan,
not caring where he was going or what would happen
if he were caught.He just needed to run. Feel the wind
through his fur, something familiar, something sane.
For a moment he felt like a kit, running just for the fun of
it. He let out a delighted laugh as his paws skimmed over
the ground almost as if he were flying.

To fly, be free, to soar through the sky.

Open up your eyes
Save yourself from fading away now, don't let it go
Open up your eyes
See what you've become, don't sacrifice

Bloodytail came to a sudden halt. "What am I doing?" he
growled to himself. "I shouldn't be here at all, not with the
wolves, and patrols to organize. Sometimes I wish I were
leader and sometimes I wish it would all go away... make
up you're mind, you stupid tom!" He shouted the last words.

Bloodlust or honor? I feel both, wish I was a beast or a hero,
not half way in between.

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal

Bloodytail raised his head, eyes widened, startled. Had he
really been shouting? I am being rather foolish today. Running
around like a kit and shouting for anyone to hear. I was being
stupid... and I should probably return to my Clan. The large
black tom turned away from the border, preparing to return
to camp.

[Cheetah]

Cheetahwind

Foolish Silverclaw! He thinks that if he distances himself from me, he will escape what I am planing. If there was a chance of me backing off, of me loving him, it had evaporated like morning mist. I have no love for anyone or anything, and the forest will suffer when I come to power...As nothing or no one is there to stop me.

Cheetahwind came to a halt at the border, knowing crossing further would only build Silverclaw's mistrust against her. She sat down, staring into the DarkClan territory. Sometimes, she wished she could be Silverstrike, the cat who got everything she wanted in life and more. Not that there was any chance for her to turn into the fire-shooting cat, but she envied her anyway.

Standing up again, she saw a tom on the other side of the border. The black cat growled to himself, then shook his head and turned again, ready to leave. Desperate for any interaction, including a border skirmish, the spotted femme leaped towards the whiff of DarkClan scent faster than Bloodytail could move a paw. Hissing softly, but menacingly, she waited for the cat to start turning, before leaping onto his back and pressing him to the ground, jumping off a second later.

For some reason, she could not continue to claw the tom's back, to push her hatred on him, even through he did not deserve it. Bracing herself for the attack that was to come back at her, she shook out her pelt in a fleeting movement and meowed. "What are you doing out here, alone? The wolves could easily rip you to shreds, you are easy prey for them. If you are so eager for this, than at least be more careful. I could of killed you right there, and I am no wolf and smaller than you." A laughing murmur escaped her throat and her eyes flickered in surprise. Where was the calm collected and dangerous cat she had assembled of herself over many moons. Taking a defensive stance, she waited for the cat to reply.

[xX Skyshadow Xx]

.& Bloodytail &.

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven’t missed you yet

Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you


Bloodytail stared, startled, at the she-cat in front of him. He had
been so engrossed in his thoughts that he had not heard the
femme until she had hissed and pounced on him. The small
clawmarks she had made stung slightly, but he hardly noticed.
He sat up, smoothing his ruffled fur as he thought of what to
say.

"You probably could have killed me, being as mouse-brianed
as I was." He grinned at her, letting a small mreow of laughter
escape his throat. "But you didn't, unless I am completely
unaware of the fact that I have joined SilverClan. Judgeing
by your defensive position, however, I am guessing that
I am still very much alive, unless you're afriad of ghosts."

Bloodytail was just about to continue, but his voice caught in his
throat. Where had the lost and confused cat from a couple of
minutes ago go? Why was she so easy to talk to, a Nightclanner
no less! You really have lost your mind this time Bloodytail.

He sighed, and Bloodytail's voice took on a more serious tone.
"I don't get it! You're so easy to talk to... and a NightClanner!
If you asked I would tell you my darkest secrets although I
haven't known you for more than a few minutes! What is wrong
with me!"

He caught himself, and his eyes widened with horror. " I
shouldn't have said that," he murmered, looking away.
"I'm not usually like this, I... I wish I could take it back but I
can no more make that happen than I can make the sun set
and the moon rise. I... I should probably just stop talking
now. I'm making it worse."

Stupid, stupid, STUPID! He thought to himself. She probably
thinks I'm completely insane, yet I've never felt like this
before...

Would you mind if I killed you?
Would you mind if I tried to?
'cause you have turned into my worst enemy
You carry hate that I don't feel
It's over now
What have you done?

I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away... oh
What have you done now?!
Why, why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us, between me and you

[Cheetah]

Cheetahwind


Sparkling angel I believed
You were my savior in my time of need.
Blinded by faith I couldn't hear
All the whispers, the warnings so clear.

"You probably could have killed me, being as mouse-brained as I was. But you didn't, unless I am completely unaware of the fact that I have joined SilverClan. Judging by your defensive position, however, I am guessing that I am still very much alive, unless you're afraid of ghosts."

The black tom wasn't attacking her, wasn't giving her back the hate she had just poured onto him? Why was he laughing here alongside her, perfectly knowing they were to be enemies, by the code of Dark SilverClan they should have been clawing off each other's pelts right now? Trying to test herself, she blinked, stepping back and shedding her claws. The action came easily, although she would never have let down her defenses right beside an enemy. But the black tom's claws were also retracted, and he showed no intention of causing her any harm whatsoever. I can run to camp in the time it takes him to hiss at me. Calm down, Cheetahwind. You know you will never attack him anyway. Why are you expecting that from him?

I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door.
There's no escape now,
No mercy no more.
No remorse cause I still remember
The smile when you tore me apart.


"I don't get it! You're so easy to talk to... and a NightClanner! If you asked I would tell you my darkest secrets although I haven't known you for more than a few minutes! What is wrong with me!"

Blood pounded in the femme's ears as she heard the cat admitting she was more than a stranger to him, that he trusted her from the very second she met her. This DarkClan stranger was letting her leave, free of harm. But, if he was a stranger, why was her heart crushing into a thousand pieces as he talked. She forced herself to look the tom straight in the eye, feeling her paws tremble under her as she did so. He admitted his words were wrong, but he hadn't denied them. She stood before him, surprisingly defenseless and quiet, as the tom murmured more words to her.

You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.

"Calmdown." Cheetahwind told both the tom and herself. "I don't know who you are, but I feel the same thing as you do. I would have been happy, but I do not know you, and you smell of the enemy I was taught to fight from my very apprenticeship." The femme spun the words in her head, swishing her tail as she realized the calm truth she had just stated was the one thing she could not force herself to do. Giving her chest a nervous lick, she meowed quietly - "I'm Cheetahwind from NightClan. And you are...?" I hope my name will be enough to keep him away from me. Unless he, like me, can not get a pawstep away from this clearing... As the spotted warrior waited for a reply, she could hear her heart banging against her chest loudly. He can probably hear it, too. Only at that moment, minutes after beating the stranger, the femme realized Silverclaw was erased from her heart.

[xX Skyshadow Xx]

.& Bloodytail &.

And if I start a commotion,
I'll only end up losin' you and that's worse.

Ever fallen in love with somoene
Ever fallen in love, in love with someone
Ever fallen in love
In love with someone you shouldn't've fallen in love with?

Bloodytail's ears pricked at a soft, even thumping sound. It was
like the heartbeat of a mouse, but stronger... slower. Yet the
sound was still too fast for a cat. The femme was... scared?

"I'm Bloodytail... DarkClanner" He replied, grateful for the
easy topic, clinging to it as if it were a lifeline. Simple words at a
complicated time. He got up and paced the width of the clearing,
stopping a whisker's length from the bushes as if they were
electrified. Muscles quivering, he spun to pace the other direction.

I'm thinking to myself
That I've done something wrong
That I've crossed the line
Have you found out this time
What led you to believe
It's only you and me
Do you see it in my eyes
Have you found out this time

"This isn't right! This can't be happening! We can't be together,
it's forbidden. Someone will find out sooner or later and we'll be
exiled or worse! Remember Embersky and Breezeecho, and... and
... and... I love you..."

Bloodytail was panting slightly, he had nothing else to say. He
could not hold a grudge against this she cat that had captured his
heart so completely that the thought of her leaving hurt him. If
she didn't love him, it would be like shredding his heart. But she
said she felt the same way, surely she couldn't!

On the ground I lay
Motionless in pain
I can see my life flashing before my eyes
Did I fall asleep?
Is this all a dream
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare

[Cheetah]

Cheetahwind

I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when your beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying

"This isn't right! This can't be happening! We can't be together, it's forbidden. Someone will find out sooner or later and we'll be exiled or worse! Remember Embersky and Breezeecho, and... and... and... I love you..."

Bloodytail loves me. He loves me. He had just said it, amidst many other words that did not matter now. The femme's face lit up, as if she had just tasted the juiciest piece of fresh-kill in the forest. Fighting with her own emotions, she paced around the clearing. This must be a trap. It's way too fast! What tom would go on and admit his feelings minutes after meeting a she-cat? But even if it is a trap, I can not leave. I will kill my own self if I do. And what if the wolves attack him now? Instinctively, after a thought of Bloodytail being in danger, she edged closer to him, ready to protect him.


While we thought we were gaining,
We'd turn back the time, it still slips away
Our time has run out, our future has died,
There's no more escape

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"Bloodytail..." - Cheetahwind hesitated, knowing once the words will be out of her mouth there will be no waqy to undo what she said and what she had done. If she kept quiet, her heart would crush into many, many pieces and never come together again, if she talked, she would be disloyal to everything she worked so long to build. The femme was about to brace herself and walk away, walk to the Clan she knew trusted and accepted her, but realized her paws were glued to the ground. "I've only met you a few minutes ago, but...I have feelings for you I can not ignore." The spotted warrior bowed her head, hiding from his glare. "But, you are right. Remember Embersky and Breezeecho, who are now loners. If you meet with me, you will experience a worse fate. Bloodytail, I am dangerous. Right now, I came to the border to plan the death of my own mate to gain power over the clan. Stop now to keep whatever you have of your loyalty, before it's too late."

Closer and closer, it's time to surrender
to the desire that you cannot mention
don't try to breathe
don't try to run away

She stopped speaking abruptly and sat down, wrapping her tail around her paws as Bloodytail paced around the clearing. Giving herself a few tender licks, the femme tried to appear calm, but deliberately hid her eyes from the tom, as she knew the flare of emotions would be instantly visible to him. Standing up again, she padded over to him and stood beside him, waiting for the tom to say the final words that would either break her heart or secure it from the outside world. Some rational, sane part of her blubbered to surface. If he stays, I will tell him my plan. He can be a useful ally.

[xX Skyshadow Xx]

OOC: When Onyxpaw is accepted post in Devil.or.Angel (WolfClan>Deathly Falls). Lyrics from The Phantom of the Opera, I love that play/movie!
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P.S. How'd you like my speech?

.& Bloodytail &.

No more talk of darkness
Forget these wide-eyed fears
I'm here, nothing can harm you
my words will warm and calm you


"But, you are right. Remember Embersky and Breezeecho,
who are now loners. If you meet with me, you will experience
a worse fate. Bloodytail, I am dangerous. Right now, I came to
the border to plan the death of my own mate to gain power over
the clan. Stop now to keep whatever you have of your loyalty,
before it's too late."

Bloodytail cringed as she mentioned her plan, although he was
not scared because she was about to take over her Clan by force.
She has a mate!?! A leader, no less! Maybe it would be better if I didn't...

Let me be your freedom
Let daylight dry your tears
I'm here, with you, beside you
To guard you and to guide you . . .

"What happened here today was a mistake, and shouldn't
have happened. You already have a mate, a leader, and your
from a different Clan. You're a traitor, lying, decietful, and if I
help you, I will forfeit my loyalty to my Clan and to SilverClan.
These are all things you shouldn't have done, and you will be
punished, I have no doubt."

"But try as I might, I cannot bring myself to hate you. I cannot
honestly call you lying and decietful. If you walk away from this
clearing today, believing I hate you and never to see me again,
I believe it would shred my heart into peices to small to repair.
Please let me help you!"

Then say you'll share with me
One love, one lifetime . . .
Let me lead you from your solitude . . .
Say you need me with you here, beside you . . .
Anywhere you go, let me go too

I can't believe I just said that! Yet I cannot bring myself to take
it back. I love her, and our path won't be easy, but we will travel
it together.

Share each day with me
Each night, each morning . . .
Say you love me . . .
You know I do . . .
Love me that's all I ask of you . . .

[Cheetah]

OOC: kk, I'll post there xD And Bloodytail is right xD Cheetahwind is a monster which shouldn't really be loved. Poor Bloodytail, he has the unluck to fall in love with Cheetahy xD

Cheetahwind

I will not fall
Won't let it go
We will be free
When it ends

"What happened here today was a mistake, and shouldn't have happened. You already have a mate, a leader, and your from a different Clan. You're a traitor, lying, decietful, and if I help you, I will forfeit my loyalty to my Clan and to SilverClan. These are all things you shouldn't have done, and you will be punished, I have no doubt."
"But try as I might, I cannot bring myself to hate you. I cannot honestly call you lying and decietful. If you walk away from this clearing today, believing I hate you and never to see me again, I believe it would shred my heart into pieces to small to repair. Please let me help you!"

"Bloodytail, you are right. And the right thing to do would be to walk away. I have never loved anyone in my life for long, and if I did, my goal would be to destroy them. Silverleaf, my mother, who died under my claws, Silverstrike, my only sister, who I had attacked numerous times and who had only survived because of her extraordinary powers, and now Silverclaw, my mate, the father of my kits, who is overthrown and doomed to death at the paws of the cat he loves. My kits, who will be used in the same dangerous plot against him. The only person to survive my kinship was Breezeecho, the only reason is him being as evil as I am."

"There is one thing you are wrong about, through. As murderous, greedy and power thirsty as I am, I am not lying. And right now, I will honestly answer you. As soon as I saw you, I fell in love with you, and jumped off you instead of clawing you to near death. Now I am telling you my plot, my life and the crimes that I had committed. Even through I had warmed you, my heart begs for me to make you stay, and I have no other choice by to let you help me, or my life will never be the same. So stay, and share my sins, only to keep us both sane."

Could have been forever.
Now we have reached the end.
This world may have failed you,
It doesn't give the reason why.
You could have chosen a different path in life.

Cheetahwind turned slowly and walked over to Bloodytail, sitting down beside him and entwined her tail with his, cheetah colored and black together. Waiting for him to reply, she knew their path together would be difficult. If there even was a path they would share. At the same time, after this brief meeting, she could not imagine not hearing his voice every day. I barely know him, and now I state that I can not live without him. I was surprised as Breezeecho stated he would fetch the moon for Embersky, a random DarkClanner. With his calm attitude, I thought that was impossible. Now I see..."Even through I know you only for a few moments...I would die for you, Bloodytail." The spotted femme murmured quietly.

[xX Skyshadow Xx]

.& Bloodytail &.

Twisted every way,
what answer can I give?
Am I to risk my life,
to win the chance to live?

Do I become her prey?
Do I have any choice?
She kills without a thought,
She murders all that's good . . .
I know I can't refuse

"As I would die to fetch the moon for you. If you left me now,
I would walk straight into NightClan territory until I found you or
was killed by a patrol. I can no more live without you as the
flowers can without rain."

It was wrong, so wrong, but all that the tom said was true. Why
He had fallen for her so quickly and completely, only SilverClan
could know. He knew she had murdered and he knew of her
plans, yet there is no way that he could leave the clearing
without her love. He didn't care that all those she had loved had
been hurt by her, he could only hope he was different.

Past the point of no return
No backward glances
The games we've played till now
Are at an end . . .

Past all thought of "if" or "when"
No use resisting
Abandon thought and let the dream
Descend . . .

The sun was lowering on the horizon bathing the clearing in red
light. Yet the black tom couldn't remember why the late time
ment he should leave the clearing. All that mattered was the
spotted pelt pressed against his own. He ran his tongue fondly
across her ears and gazed out at the setting sun.

So bright... so beautiful...

[Cheetah]

Cheetahwind

Temptation in my heart
I'm burning, I fall apart
When the night falls
My heart calls
For another devotion

A small smirk appeared on her face, now that she was sure he loved her...Now that she was sure she was safe. For tonight. "I'm tempted to see if that's true." The femme murmured, and then smiled, pressing herself to Bloodytail, their tails entwining even more and their fur so close they could be one body. "Why is it you? You I fell in love with, you I am ready to chase to the Mountains and back after? Not Silverclaw, not some average NightClan tom, but Silverstrike's trusted cat, a DarkClanner? We will have to take all possible precautions not to get caught..." Cheetahwind looked at him, her eyes glowing as she saw the same love in his eyes as she felt in her heart.

Now that I know what I'm without,
You can't just leave me.
Breathe into me and make me real.
Bring me to life.

I am such a fool. Why do I have to suffer, both from him having to go away and from his presence? If he tells any cat anything from what I had just said to him, I will be exiled by both Silverclaw and Silverstrike, who will only be overjoyed with my death. Haven't I learned not to confide in anyone or anything, and now...? Is this the end? Or...the beginning? "I cannot feel happy until Silverclaw joins our ancestors...I have to get back to camp, get back to find more followers and supporters. Plus, today I will be getting my first apprentice. I will meet you here tomorrow." Cheetahwind thought for a second, imagining not seeing the tom for an entire day. "Or today night. Can you sneak out of camp?"